Wants and Needs and Wont and Kneads

     There are so many things to do! Just in the world, there are so many things that are available for doing. It's amazing. And sometimes it gets overwhelming. How to keep up?!
     "Wants and needs and wont and kneads" could be the title of this past year. I want to do it all. But I need to sleep and I need a job. I'm wont to jump in to so many projects and get in over my head. I don't knead all that much, but I could take the leap to say I'm kneading myself into the person I want to be. I have wants and needs and I wont and knead. Ah! It's so much.
     Usually it's so much in a good way. I meant to take a nap last night--I turned off the light but left the TV on and set an alarm for 2 hours--I woke up 12-hours later. Apparently I needed that. For a minute I felt guilty for sleeping so much and missing shows I was planning to go to. But again, I probably needed the sleep and in the long run, a healthier well rested me is better for all. This morning I watched a short clip of a Mad Men thing someone had made. I thought "oh man, I need to catch up on that show. I didn't know Rory was on it." And I started to try to figure out how to carve out weeks to catch up on Mad Men. And then all of the other TV shows I need to catch up on.
     I love TV. I haven't seen much of it recently, but not because I don't want to. Recently someone asked me if I watched something and I could hear myself being one of those assholes who starts with "oh, no, I don't watch..." I cut myself off but it was too late. I do watch TV. I love watching TV. I haven't recently because I was doing something else. But it's not a good excuse. I want to watch TV. I need it. I'm wont to watch TV all the live long day. I have no knead analogy for TV.
     I'm going to keep pondering this whole wants, needs, wont, kneads thing, but I think a lot of it comes down to patience. I see all of the things around me that I want to do. I think about all the steps I need to do to get to those wants. And I consider my wont behaviors--some are helpful, some not so much. And right now I think the answer is that in time, with the right balance, I will be able to catch up on Mad Men.

Songs Stuck in My Head

For some inexplicable reason, I get this song stuck in my head every day at work. From beginning to end. I sing the whole thing, out loud, at work.



I also get this song stuck in my head, because every day someone says the word Brooklyn, and then I go "I'm standin' in Brooklyn, waiting for something to happen..." and we're off.

Improv Makes Me Feel Good

     Uh oh, another feel good post!
     Improv makes me feel good. I was lucky enough to be invited down to Improvapalooza in DC yesterday to reunite with Neighbors, a team I had helped form a year ago before the move to NYC. It was a blast. The 11-minute set was totally worth the 8-hour bus ride to and from the city.
     Tonight I get to practice more improv with people I truly like. And then I get to watch improv performed by people who are truly awesome. And then on Saturday, practice more improv. And then on Sunday, improv class! Amazing. It fills my heart with happiness.
     Sometimes I wish I would have figured this out years ago; I've gotten a late start in life with improv. On the other hand, without everything that I did before, this might not seem as sweet. My previous life experience helps to color and inform my scenes and characters, so in that respect, I see this as the exact right path. And I've said it before, but I'd rather die face down in a gutter in NYC than live a boring life anywhere else.
     In the show I performed yesterday, I had a really honest organic moment that probably got the biggest laugh of the whole set, and it made me fly. It was super simple: someone offered me a cookie, I started to take it and then they told me it was a vegan cookie so I gave it back saying "Oh, then you can keep it." I was just having an honest reaction to someone offering me a vegan cookie. The audience loved it. I felt good.
     In real life, I have been offered vegan cookies and I have accepted them and they were fine. But I was being kind by accepting it in the first place; I am not a jerk. But that nuance doesn't play well on stage, and I didn't have time to think about it. I just made a choice and it was great. It was so simple, and small, but still, good. Thanks improv!

Revel in It

     It's been a really nice week, and I want to take a moment to revel in it. As a people, we spend so much time complaining--sometimes for good reason--it gets tough to really notice the good stuff. Or I guess just not the completely terrible stuff. But I want to take note that right now, I feel good. I don't have a cold. I'm not overly exhausted, hungry, or smelly. It's not raining outside. Or inside. Things are nice. Ahh, that's nice.
     Of course if I go on like this too long, I'll become a giant jerk. I don't want that. I just don't want to be ungrateful when things actually feel pretty good. Happiness feels like this sometimes:

Sure, I used an Instagram filter on that, but still, it's cool. And it makes me feel good.

Good Nap

     Today's nap was a damn good nap. Now I feel like I'm ready to take on the world! Or, if not the world, the rest of the evening. I'm proud of myself for being fully functional again. If I were a freak who took pictures of herself whilst sleeping, I would post it here so you could see just how damn good that nap was.
     I also had a really nice bathroom sesh afterwards, but that's too far for pics. And descriptions really. I can't talk about. It's not polite, so please don't ask.

Photo Day

It was photo day again!

http://oneday10photos.blogspot.com/2012/08/im-standing-in-brooklyn.html

I am super strong!

It's August

     I hate being that person, but can you believe it's August already? Well sure, because time is passing linearly, the way we all expect. So it's not really that weird. Ok. Fine.
     Have you been watching the Olympics? I haven't, but not because I don't care. I do; I think it's usually pretty fun to get emotionally invested in someone's athletic ability for about 25-minutes at a time. I just haven't been able to work a lot of Olympic watching into my schedule. I did, however, catch about 2-minutes of water polo today--it's weird. There was so much whistle blowing (literally) that I couldn't stand watching it. The sport itself is a more boring version of soccer; that's fine, I was content trying to learn an under-appreciated sport. But all the whistles. What the hell?
     I've caught a few of the other events, but like everyone else, I'm dismayed by the delay and the spoilers. If they make it into a movie though, then I'll watch it.